Mood:  not sure

 *Updating all your internet social accounts causes acute paranoia and in some cases schizophrenia!* 

That should be a headline somewhere...  :and should include blogs too!:  Constantly thinking someone is watching what you do at all times and actually cares what you're doing at all times has to cause some type of 'not easily reversed' mental damage.  And think of all the kids growing up with this all this stuff...  they aren't gonna know anything else! 

And constantly being accessible used to only be for doctors with pagers...  now everyone HAS to have a cell phone.  I didn't have one for years and it was great!  Now my son has gotten one for me and it frequently :accidentally of course: gets lost. 

Just something I was thinking about :saw article about Google Buzz contoversy yesterday:...  and is it proved by the fact I think to blog about it???   hmmm...

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peace and good mental health,

cottonseed

Mood:  chillin'

It's been a minute...  been under the weather.  Back problems and general stuff.  I also gave up caffiene.  NO energy.  Had to get back acclimated to my own body's natural patterns. 

Let's see...  I chopped off all my hair....  I started using my lunar calendar again.  You can go here if you'd like to check one out.  It was made by a woman named Shekinah.  Scroll down for a copy you can save to your computer and print out.   Telling time by the moon really works for me.  I become more aware of natures cycles this way...  both inside and outside my body.  For those who aren't familiar with it, you can go to Farmer's Almanac to see the old names for the full moons of the year.  Those will be the names of the months.   Also can research different NDN nation's names for the moons and various other cultures as well.  Or use those as a guideline to make up your own to go with what is happening around you at these times of the year.  

I also reworked the website a bit.  Added some stuff, took some stuff away.  :)  If my mood stays, I'll be adding more pages and upgrading to take away the ads.  I didn't even realize the pages had ads until I thought about it a moment.  I use Firefox with AdBlock Plus (both are free) and it automatically blocks em.  I turned it off and went to the pages and yuk!  They even sometimes get pop ups so.... that's not gonna work.   

That's all for now...  I'm a little sleepy so I'll probably add another post later on.  I know there was something I wanted to add, but I can't remember now.  

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with peace and love,

cottonseed

Happy New Year world!...  well at least to those who recognize this as the beginning of the year.  I was talking to my niece about this.  She says this is one the worst holidays for her.  I think she does not appreciate the hypocrisy of it all.    We had a nice little talk about the significance of the New Year falling 7 days after Christmas, which is the (depending on how you wanna look at it) rebirth of the sun after the winter solstice.  Also some churches celebrate it as the Feast of Circumcision, being that it would have been the day of baby Jesus being circumsised if he was born on that day.  I told her in many old cultures the new year was in the fall at harvest time and that many societies use/used two calendars, one for civic and one for spiritual holidays (if my memory on the subject is correct).

So time is relevant and of course tied in with the culture and beliefs.  However in our culture, the beliefs and facts are a bit muddy.

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Now on to the mystery of the Flamin' Hot Cheetos.  I have yet to meet a child who does not like them.  I think the youngest I've seen with the FHC monkey-on-their-back would have to be about 1 year old.  In our family kids start eating hot foods pretty young, but even this is early by my standards. They'll get a hold a of hot cheeto and not even wince.  And cry if you don't give them more.  My nieces were straight out addicted.  What the heck is in those things?!  Something is not right.

I typed in Google "hot cheetos addiction" and some webpages came up.  One link a facebook group support group, a couple of wiki answers pages and an urban dictionary definition.  But I'm scared to go to the Urban Dictionary site...  the ud posters write some crazy raunchy stuff I don't feel like settin my eyes upon.     

So what's the deal?   People speculate it has something to do with the red dye and the kids get an actual high from them.  Sounds reminiscent of the "Red Punch Controversy".  Could very well be a factor.  Updates as I find them.

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cottonseed

(Adding this thought to previous post on environmental hijack...) 

There is something going on with the environment.  Everybody can see it and has seen it with their own eyes.  Big business has been polluting the air, the rivers, the groundwater.  Now if what's going on is being enhanced through governmental means that would bolster their claim for the acceleration in warming or global warming in general.  They accelerated it, so they could make it worse to instill irrational panic/fear, gain control and solve it (or appear to solve it) their way.   If I remember correctly, just a few years ago these politicians were shaking in their boots over how much their 'supporters' could possibly lose over all this.  But like a politician (that I can't remember now) stated, you take advantage of disasters (in reference to 9/11).  Or something along those lines.  It's the old if you can't beat em', join em'... and a little "steer it where you want it to go" thrown in for total takeover. 

So in summary, I just wanted to make the point, not to second guess ourselves and discount what we have experienced as far as the damage done to the environment goes.  All that's been true.  Now how all the damage has been done is what we are not so sure about. And what's not true is the fake concern these governments are now exhibiting.   Have to remember that by law a corporation must see to it's own survival first, as the law sees it as a person.  Is this government a corporation?  And what's to gain?  Greater and easier access to more resources (us)?

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with greatest love,

cottonseed

(Where Monsanto shrinks you smaller than a snowflake  hahahahaha)

I am bookmarking several links here to show to my niece.  I was talking to her about the scary Monsanto ride "Adventure to Inner Space" the other day.  We were discussing all the current stuff going on with that company today and how that ride used to scare the bejeebez outta me.  It just seemed so creepy.  That eyeball looking at you at the end through the microscope...  made me shudder, like they were leading us off to imprison us or something.  Or like they knew something we didn't.  From then on out, Monsanto seemed like a high tech futuristc evil intentioned crazy group to me.  I even remember trying to do research on who they were exactly.  They gave me the same feeling as when I watched that movie "The Stepford Wives" and also that old western with Yul Brynner and he's a robot cowboy in a tourist ghost town.  :shudder:

Well these two sites are tributes to the ride and the third is the wikipedia entry.  There you go Missy M.  :)

Yesterland -- Adventures to Inner Space

The Mighty Microscope -- Tribute to Adventures to Inner Space

Wikipedia Entry

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Love You!

Why do I have such a hard time coming up with titles for these posts?  I think that maybe one of the main reasons I don't post...  hahahahahaha  okay yeah I'll let that be the reason...  but I think I'm going to think of a generic post title for when I'm not clever enough to come up with something relevant.  I think *Starshine*...  or how bout *monkey shines*...  hahahahaha  what does that mean anyway? 

Ok, to the generating thought...  came across a video the other day about the environmental movement being hijacked.  It was really good and I'd not heard that before.  I'd felt that before, but about the whole "green" thing that started up maybe in the last couple of years or so.  I'd even had a discussion with a friend about the uneasy feeling it gave me to see all the slick blogs and media selling "green" things at stupidly ridiculous prices.  Pushing the idea that "going green" was going to cost you big bucks all the while skirting that it was going to cost you big bucks.  When I first heard of a "green" show on TV I was pretty excited, but I felt very disappointed after watching a family spend near or over (I can't remember now) a quarter of million dollars to "greenify" themselves.  And all the *hardships* faced and how they felt like giving up at times.  Well I would too if I spent that much money!  What the heck?!  It seemed to be to discourage the general populace and eliticize the ones who could afford it and appease their *wealth guilt* with the badge of doing something good.  My friend said I was looking at it wrong and that money wasn't bad and that it was good they were creating a market and that it would help me and the business I was starting up at the time.  I didn't really have a good arguement at the time, since all that I wrote above, I've only come to realize here in the past year or so, and only after some good thinking on the matter.  At the time I couldn't really put my finger on why I felt the way I did.  That would be the symptom they were going for of course.  

My friend would do *work* with me on me releasing my conceptions about money.  I felt something was wrong with me, because I just could not get with "that" program.  I had many a sleepless night, because it was affecting my business plans.  Eventually it stiffled them altogether.  I revised and revised my plans trying to get into this business model thing...  trying to participate and be in the *niche*, but my self would not let me.  And it became a trickle down affect.  What I was seeing was not feeling good and it felt like I was trying to insert myself right back into the corporate world I'd left, only this time I was going to be a perpetrator, not merely a participator.  

I did not see the forest for the trees.   Plus there were other factors going on that reinforced my ignoring that nagging feeling.  I became involved with another hijacked group...  this one a hijacker of the so-called *enlightenment movement*.  These folks were/are true frickin terrorists.  They were bilking folks out of so much money to *keep working* on themselves...  constantly tweaking.  Thank goodness I was a barely-making-it single mother of four (wow I don't think I've ever seen that statement before  )  and I didn't have the money for all that gobledeegoo...  and what common-sense I was still in command of, would not let me give them money that could go to my children.  Plus besides my cultural upbringing just would not let me.  However I stayed "studying" with these folks for about 4 or 5 years and it did it's share of damage anyway.  

Before I get totally off-track here, the point being that greed seeps in the littlest cracks and crevices.  Moral and religious organizations are prime targets for this type of thing, capitalizing on people's desire to want to do good or be good.  And that is really a sad thing.  Couple that with the sheeplization of American society and these crooks have it made in the shade. 

Keep remembering that your/my opinions and ideas count.  If you/we don't give in so easily without someone satisfactorily supplying an alternative answer, the liars and crooks will be exposed.  Seek honestly and without expectation, staying open and not believing so quickly.  It's not rude to question, as long as judgement is left somewhere else.   Truth can stand up to scrutiny and trust that you/we can make sound judgements and you/we have a good brain and can make correct decisions.  If a feeling comes up that hey somethings not right here, don't dismiss it without checking it out.  Don't believe the hype.  Don't look for the hype.  If it is hype-y, that suggests careful scrutiny is needed.  

Living freely should be just that...  free.  Free minds, free hearts and enjoying and gratefullness for what God provides on this wonderful earth.  If you/we take our hearts and minds back, we give ourselves freedom.  

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with greatest love,

cottonseed

(I just realized this blog doesn't have spell check sooooo...  I don't think I spelled anything too horribly that it can't be understood, if so well comment me...  hahahahahha  I'm assuming someone's reading this   )

Mood:  quizzical

dis·cov·er

–verb (used with object)

This word confuses me.  In the definition above it can mean all the way from just seeing something all the way to finding something. 

Okay well, this is a word that used to make me very angry.  Now I just chuckle whenever I hear it used in reference to "explorers", "the New World" "America"...  I mean now that's subtle...   a sneaky hidden superiority/racism is weaved into 'little' statements like this one.  This is probably why so many people deny or miss this one.  I mean it's really mind boggling that someone could look at the statement "When Columbus discovered the New World..." and actually not question it!  ("New World" is, of course, a loaded euphemism too)  This shows a deep deep problem...  a person's mental faculties really have to be off kilter for this one to take hold.  I questioned this the first time I heard it at 6 years old.  Have to really think how come no one else in my class did or thought to?  It's really sad but American Denial/Guilt is a lineage...  passed down from generation to generation...  and IMO that's why patriotism get's so out of control and skewed here.  If you really know something is true, then you don't have to shout it from the rooftops every chance you get.  Who must that person be trying to convince? Me or them? Healing comes through facing every part of ourselves. America will fall if it does not do this.  America appears to be forcing "a lesson" upon itself, because it won't do it voluntarily. 

 And here's another good "true statement"... recently I've been hearing this more frequently in reference to the government being 'hijacked'? -->...  "This country was founded on the principles of freedom..."  Okay stop.  Huh?!  Which country? This one?  **All the founding fathers had slaves.  Seems to be a big contradiction/problem there.  Unless the people making these statements today don't believe blackmen / native american men / women count under freedom?  :looking:  And see, it has to be said, that a good majority of white Americans have always felt free.  The others of us still don't.  So us "others" recognize that fear in their faces...  it's what we live with daily, we've just had longer to get used to it and that has been OUR LINEAGE.  I was raised knowing how to cope with this.  Well it would just be cool if people would use that gray matter sometimes and realize that facing inner lies/fears won't kill the physical you...  it will just make you stronger.

*Just for reference sake, of course , I must say here for those that don't know...  the founding fathers did not come up with the framework for the American government all on their own.  They had A LOT of help from the Iroquois Federation via Mr. Franklin.

**Another 'little' fact...  In 1784, five years before he became president of the United States, George Washington, 52, was nearly toothless. So he hired a dentist to transplant nine teeth into his jaw--having extracted them from the mouths of his slaves.

Here's a link to a video of Mr. Dave Chapelle... (I can't figure out how to embed the video)  it has cussing/'strong language' so if you're easily offended...  don't watch!    It starts to be relevant to the above topic around 02:01 , but all of it's funny!

[I edited this post for clarity and video link]

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with greatest love,

cottonseed